"Proud to be"

Dear readers,

It's one of those awkward moments when I no longer can figure out what am I proud of in life and what is so proud to be in me. Most of the time I'm proud of myself being survived in this fast moving and self-centered world but all the other time I'm a bit confused of my proudness. My self-esteem drops down at times and I feel like I don't really have anything so worthwhile to be proud of. I don't even know whether my family or my friends or my relatives are proud of me. What I've gone through all these years and my experiences are nothing to be proud of I guess. Those experiences makes me sad as well sometimes. But I tend to protect good times only and try to keep aside horrible ones. I have recollection of each moments but still trying hard not to remember those moments which annoys me most.

Things I'm proud of:

• Being a Nepali and born in Nepal,
• Winning prizes in school and taking it home and give it to mom every year,
• Getting driving license at the age of 18,
• Persuing my dream of being independant as soon as I finish my higher secondary,
• Again getting driving license in the UK (followed by buying a car),
• passing difficult exams (though I failed many exams after coming here, first time in life),
• Sending little amount of money home in festive season(though I was broke),
• Making my parents proud (but I quite not know what they're proud of)
• To be able to give some support to my younger sister,
• Meeting many people from all over the world,
• Opening a blog and keeping my writing spirit alive (thanks to twitter buddies).

The list continues................

But one the other hands things that I'm not too proud of are:

• Leaving some unfinished studies and works behind,
• Ignoring some chances cause those chances clash with my self-respect,
• Being aggressive and mixing my emotions and anger together,
• Eating more and not be able to lose weight (hehehe),
• Competitive driving (I get annoyed by people overtaking me without signalling).

Ahh well this list continues as well. The thing I know very well is that I'm proud of calling myself Nepali and introduce my country to those who don't know geography. I'm in the UK right now, it's my Karmavumi (workplace), but one day I will definitely serve my Matrivumi (motherland). 

I feel better after writing this post. This blog has been my  means of spreading my happiness and communicating. Love my readers and the followers. Keep my spirit alive people.

"Earthquake that shook my heart"

Date: 18/09/2011

Dear people of Nepal and Eastern India! You have escaped the fierceful natural Calamity for now atleast.

Today I was roaming around nice big park with my brother and sisters when I heard that an earthquake of 6.8 or 6.9 hit Sikkim and the effect reflected in Kathmandu as well. A cold chill went through my spine. All of a sudden were all worried and we started calling home straightaway to find out about our beloved ones. Thank god all of them were fine. I even tweeted rightaway and I got few responses . I remembered all my twitter buddies from Nepal and wondered if they were OK or not! Sadly few people in India and Nepal lost their lives. May their soul rest in peace.

The fear of losing someone you care is unimaginable thing. The earthquake happened there but it shook my heart here. All we can do here is pray and hope for the wellbeing of our loved ones. Nature is controlling the population of planet Earth in its own way. I have always accepted that nothing is greater than NATURE itself. My mom says we can never win over and also never play with 3 things: water, fire and wind! Well, she's right. All these natural calamities happening lately has proved that no matter how much human being can be developed and become sophisticated nature is always above it. I hope now nature is done with its revenge with humans and forgive us for ruining its chasity. 

PRAYING. FOR. A. SAFER. EARTH. TO. LIVE. IN!!!

Check out this video on YouTube:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Glny4jSciVI&feature=youtube_gdata_player

"यै ॔ नेपालमा"

मेरो पहीलो देशप्रेमी नेपाली कवीता । मैले यो कवीता पूरा जोशमा कवीतावाचन प्रितयोिगतामा भनेको िथएँ। आशा छ तपाईहरूलाई पनी मनपर्छ होला ।

सुन्दर िहमाल हाँस्दछ यै ॔ नेपालमा
कोमल गुँरास फुल्दछ यै ॔ नेपालमा
डाँफे, मुनाल नाँच्दछ यै ॔ नेपालमा
मैना चरी िचरबिराऊँछ यै ॔ नेपालमा ।

हरीया डाँडा नािसन्छन् यै ॔ नेपालमा
खोलानाला मैिलन्छन् यै ॔ नेपालमा
महलहरू भग्नावशेष हुन्छन यै ॔ नेपालमा
रीितरीवाज बदिलदैछन् यै ॔ नेपालमा ।

जन्मे गौतम बुद्ध यै ॔ नेपालमा
हुिर्कए जानकी यै ॔ नेपालमा
भृकुटी पनी खेले यै ॔ नेपालमा
वीरगती भए कैयौं नेपाली यै ॔ नेपालमा ।

ढािकंदैछन् तराईपहाड यै ॔ नेपालमा
बढ्दैछन् अन्याय अपराध यै ॔ नेपालमा
पहील्याउँदैछन् िवदेशका बाटाहरू यै ॔ नेपालमा
िबग्रदैंछ प्रजातन्त्र यै ॔ नेपालमा ॥

हाम्र्ो देशको राम्र्ो पक्छ्यलाई अङ्गालौं र कमीकमजोरीको उन्मुलन गरौं॥ 
जे-जस्तो भएपनी मलाई मेरो देश प्यारो लाग्छ । मेरो पहीचान भन्नु नै नेपाल हो । 
धन्यवाद
सकुन्तला िलम्बु

Oi....yaar......saala O.o

Oi....yaar......saala O.o

Oi saathi tah nabhaye ni bikhushi hunu parne chaina kunai kar,
Yaar taile chodera gaye pani eklo hune chaina kunai darr,
Saala bholi marney ho ki k ho chaina jindagi ko bharr.

Oi mero bhootkaal, biti sakis aba baal  k ko karr,
Yaar bartamaan sadhai babaal banauna k ko darr,
Saala mero bhabisyatkaal ma k hune ho chaina kunai bharr.

Oi manis jaat, taile banayeko simana ma kochera basnu parne chaina kunai karr,
Yaar afu ta swatantra panchi hun lagdaina kasaiko darr,
Saala mrityu le pani dhoka nadela bhanne chaina kunai bharr.

Oi mero hridayama talai rakhnu parne chaina kehi karr,
Yaar ta bina pani mero jindagi bitauchu baharma k ko darr,
Saala aba nadekha tero anuhaar natra k po garidinchu mero ris ko chaina kunai bharr.

Young Love and Young heart

I originally wrote it for somebody's request, but I still love this piece of my creativity so much that I'm posting here. Hope no one minds.


Its about a boy trying to persuade a girl. well its kinda kiddish but i try to write a boy might think. 

Note: This is purely my creation and not copied from other sources. Respect.

 

When I first saw you, I didn't notice you.

The second time I met you, I didn't even recognize you.

But I couldn't forget you, the third time I received a glance from you.

Now everyday I wanna see you, I just can't get enough of you.

Your gravity is pulling me towards you,

Your vanity is subsidizing my egoistic youth,

Your naivity is killing me deep inside,

Your fragility is telling me to move aside.

I wanna take a sip of your lips,

I wanna steal the vibes of your eyes,

Give me one reason not to confess,

Do you even care about the feeling I suppressed.

You are like that sweet pain in my heart,

Loving me won't be vain if we start,

Can't make promises that we stay or depart,

But I can assure you that I will never be apart.

"Someone said to me.........So what"

Hey hey hey, here's another poem from me to give you enough headache and wind up your mind. :) But let me tell you something, we might be extremely bad at something which might prove that we are good at doing bad things. Hahahaha

"Someone said to me............So what"

Someone said to me, YOU'RE NOT A BEAUTIFUL GIRL.
So what, I DO SMILE BEAUTIFULLY.

Someone said to me, YOU'RE NOT A TALENTED PERSON.
So what, I DO DO THINGS HANDSOMELY.

Someone said to me, YOU'RE NOT A GOOD WRITER.
So what, I DO INTERPRET MY FEELINGS TACTFULLY.

Someone said to me, YOU'RE NOT A GOOD LISTENER.
So what, I DO RECEIT THOSE WORDS REPEATEDLY.

Someone said to me, YOU'RE NOT A GOOD DRIVER.
So what, I DO TAKE YOU TO YOUR DESTINATION CONFIDENTLY.

Someone said to me, YOU'RE NOT A GOOD DANCER.
So what, I DO MOVE MY BODY WITHOUT HESITATING AND FREELY.

Someone said to me, YOU'RE NOT A GOOD THINKER.
So what, I DO MAKE SURE NOT TO HARM ANYBODY PURPOSELY.

Someone said to me, YOU'RE A LOUD SPEAKER.
So what, I DO FIGHT FOR MY RIGHTS LAWFULLY.

Someone said to me, YOU'RE A DREAM LOVER,
So what, I DO WISH FOR THEIR FULFILLMENT BLISSFULLY.

Someone said to me, YOU'RE A COMPLETE DISASTER.
So what, I DO MAKE THINGS BETTER HOPEFULLY.

Someone said to me, YOU'RE A OPPORTUNITY SEEKER.
So what, I DO PRAY FOR ONETIME CHANCE IN LIFE DESPERATELY.

Someone said to me, YOU'RE A GOLD-DIGGER.
So what, I DO LOOK FOR GOLD BUT NOT IN SOMEONE ELSE'S PROPERTY.

Someone said to me, YOU'RE A COWARD FRIEND.
So what, I DO HAVE TO KEEP BALANCE OF GOOD FRIENDSHIP BRAVELY.

Someone said to me, YOU'RE A ARROGANT WINKER,
So what, I DO HOLD MY SELF-ESTEEM UNDOUBTFULLY.

Someone said to me, YOU'RE A OVERCONFIDENT BIRD.
So what, I DO HAVE THAT SO CALLED ELIGIBILITY.

Someone said to me, YOU'RE A DAMN SEXY BI**H.
So what, I DO SAY "TELL ME 'BOUT IT" IF YOU THAVE THAT ABILITY.

Someone said to me, FU*K *FF.
So what, I DO KNOW HOW TO P*SS YOU OFF SARCASTICALLY.

 Pardon my few words if you find it offensive. 

Many thanks for reading and trying to understand this messed up scattered words. :) CHEERS XXOO :D o.O