Love > Heartbreak > Music

Yesterday I went to watch a Bollywood movie 'Rockstar' with my people. I only watch selected Bollywood movie. It was a nice movie. One point it was saying to the lead actor, 'you need to feel pain to create great music'. The lead actor does not feel anything till the girl leaves him. I'm not really trying to do publicity of the movie but just trying to write few points I liked most.

• How the girl is carefree when she meets him. They make a list of crazy things they want to do. And they dare to do it as well. Those crappy pubs and clubs where they dance.
• The scene of Kashmir. I just love that place and dream to go there if life and luck assist me.
• When the girl says she will meet him in Prague and the guy says ,'I haven't even been to Nepal'. Hahaha crazy lines.
• When he says to the bride (actress) "Every guy in the wedding secretly fantasies about the bride at night". Hahahhhahaha
• How he pauses for a minute when he hears the sound of 'Shehnai' played by an old man. This sound is normally played in weddings.
• How practical life is; she's got married life but he still seeks her presence. People who are in music; I have always found them living in different world of their own.
• How he rises to fame. You can learn music everywhere, in shrine, in roads, etc.
• The best and funniest part I ever liked is : when this Rockstar Jordan vomits in the red carpet event. (It's just a glimpse) He is very very carefree and does not give a damn to anybody.
• The back vocal was given by Mohit Chouhan and its just lovely. He also sang one of my other favourite song 'Naa hai yeh paana' from movie 'Jab We Met'.
• How the movie has still kept the reality fact alive and no commercial fonda, like the girl was about to get married and she does get married. How she was going to die and she does end up in coma. No here and there spiced up thing. The reality and curse of being famous. Even his friends love his fame and status rather than his loneliness and restlessness.
• When he tries to figure out why he couldn't be sad like when he says 'I was fed well in childhood, I wasn't adopted, my parents are still alive, I have a good family, blah blah'. There is nothing that could give him pain.

He, the rockstar, does create great music because of the real pain he feels deep within his heart. The pain of denial, the pain of love, the pain of seperation from family, the pain of separation from his love of life. Does it really happen? Does the pain inside your heart makes you create such great music? I also write poems, and I personally think that people write what they have gone through. Talking about that yep there are singer/ songwriter who has written about the state of their pain, happiness and so on.
Examples are like : (based on what I heard, no factfinding is carried out)

1. Eric Clapton wrote 'Tears in Heaven' when his son died.
2. Pink wrote many songs related to the phases of her life. 'So what', 'Please don't Leave', 'Like a Pill'.
3. Axl Rose wrote 'Sweet Child Oh Mine' for his sweetheart of that time.
4. Christina Aguilera sang 'You are Beautiful' which reflects her Life as well.
5. Mariah Carey wrote 'Hero'.
6. Gary Barlow wrote 'Patience', I guess he was being patient towards his comeback and drawback.
7. Jon Bon Jovi wrote 'Midnight In Chelsea' cause he loved the place.
8. Bruno Mars says 'Count on me' to his friends, 'Today I don't feel like doing anything' to his dad, 'The way you are' to his girl. I like his simple lyrics songs.
9. Talking about Nepali songs, 'Bides jaane mayalu' is one of the greatest song I heard. The singer/ songwriter wrote the song remembering his ex who married somebody else.
Chandani Shah is writer of most of the heart-touching song behind the greatest hits of SworSamrat Narayan Gopal 'Euta mancheko' also Singer Tara Devi 'Ukali orali haruma'. Tragically as her lyrics in the song which goes on like "jaha jaha janchau timi, chaya bani pachyayi rahanchu" (wherever you go I will follow you) she died with her husband together.
10. Puff daddy remixed the song 'I'll be missing you' to give tribute to his friend Notorious Big.
11. Eminem always dares to write and sing the songs which relates to some reality situation.
12. Amy Winehouse's 'Rehab' and many songs are superb.
13. The famous composer Mozzart. He created magical music following the different phases of his life as well. Finally it killed him.

Well if I go on like this it'll be a long long long long list. So, I'm going to STOP it here.

I believe music can also be created to show happiness as well and not only pain.

Well done actor, the whole movie crew and the newcomer girl. Music of this movie is encouraging and rocking. Rock is the form of music I like most anyways.

Thanks for bothering to read it till end. Keep visiting. :))

Dream of a teenage girl

(There's so many things to write but I just couldn't write them in words. Tried to jot down some experience which I could lay on words. Happy Reading. Find some videos on the given link.) 

http://www.youtube.com/user/khusi3dg?feature=mhee

Hey there people, this weekend has been one of the amazing week in my life for sure. Sorry for bragging too much about it. I'm going to tell you why it was. I grew up in a household where I had a big brother who was very much into heavy metal and rock. Younger sibling always have influence of the elder ones, not totally but to some extent may be. Everybody in the house loves music and there always plenty of rooms for it. I heard from my brother about Bon Jovi, GN'R, Led Zapplin, Iron Maiden, Pearl Jam, Metallica, Aerosmith, AC/DC, Pantera, Pink Floydd, Poison, Mr Big, Van Halen, The Scorpions, Megadeth, U2 and many many more. If I start writing it'll be a whole book I guess. He used to have a whole collection of posters, year book published by Billboard Top 100, pictures, etc. Since then I have always been fond of rock and metal music, I do like other music as well but what I call real music is ROCK MUSIC. I used to sing along with my brother (though my voice didn't suit it). I tried to learn guitar but wasn't able to play it well cause my fingers were to small to reach all the chords, I memorised all those lyrics by heart. I had a dream of being in a live concert. I never ever thought, 'a dream of a teenage girl came true'. Thought it took more than a decade to fulfill that dream atlast it did happen. I think my brother would be proud of me cause I truly believe its not only my dream but its his dream as well (haven't told him yet).

I had a chance to see him last year in O2 Arena, but I didn't had anyone to go along with me. I regretted so much for missing that chance. Then I hear in TV that he is coming in Hard Rock Calling 2011 concert. I thought to myself, this time if I have to go alone then I will. I won't expect anybody to come with me, luckily my sister was with me. I know she is also true fan of Bon Jovi. I did spend a lot of money to do here and there and waited almost 5.30 hours to see them. But, but tell you what guys, it's completely worth it. When they came it was all music, magic and just felt like the whole air over there had a different melody. Even the smell of beer and drunk people smelt like rock flavour. All those people around us were taller then us, way too much tall. I was telling my sister, 'oh our heads are in their tummy or chest.' Most of them were very supportive saying,'come here! you guys can see better from here'. I was very lucky to be lifted by this guy. I was never on the shoulder of anybody before, gosh there I was on the shoulder of some unknown white guy. I later realised he had some message written on this cheeks and it goes like ,'MARRY ME', haha funny. I saw everything so clearly. I even saw the real JBJ and Ritchie Sambora and the group. OMG that feeling was awsome, I could see all the people in the concert below me. They played almost all the songs I liked and I also knew the lyrics, not alienated for not knowing lyrics in those crowd. We were like 'Crane in the house of Crow', a famous Nepalese saying. Infact they were staring at us when we were screaming and spilling out those rock fever words. Ahhh what a blissful moment. I forgot all those hassles to get there and all those waiting. Then I kind of realised, 'If it's worth waiting I might as well wait', it goes to many things in my life, but sad and bitter truth is I don't kow what is worth and what isn't. I can't explain all those feelings just here with few words, even if I have thousands of words can't really express the kind of happiness I experienced yesterday 25.06.2011. My hands were holding my iphone to capture to momentus and they weren't tired at all. I have shared some videos in my youtube channel.

By the way, I nearly forgot to mention in my excitement, I also saw Ryan Davies the frontman of KinKs. When I first heard his name called out I was like ,'who is he?'. As soon as he was on the stage most of the people stood up and there were 'oooo's and cheers everywhere. After listening to his song then I suddenly knew I have heard his music. Then he played another nice song and so on and on. I wonder how do I know his songs so well, I finally figured it out. I hear his song everyday in the radio at work cause my employer likes songs from 60's, 70's and 80's,DAB Gold Radio. It's nice to know more about songs and singers as well as music.

Today, 26.06.2011, I went to place where there is a small man-made sandy beach. It has actually a small lake but they've put sand on the shore which makes it like a sandy beach. One of the hottest temperature of 29 degree centigrade. It's rare to enjoy such temperature in London. There was woodland to walk along and many things to do. I enjoyed hot weather despite getting sunburn and sweaty feeling all the time. 

Ooopss didn't realise it's been a long post trying to write all these things. Thanks for reading. :)

they're both my Converse 

wish they could have put the screens bit higher

Ritchie Sambora does it his way, WOW

Here's JBJ, still strong and young. 

The crowd