Unsorted desires and dreams

Yes ! I do,
Yes ! I believe,
Yes ! I dream,
Yes ! I have desires.


Hey but all dreams and desires can't be good ones. I sometimes think evil as well, at that very moment I might have been fighting with my own beliefs, my own perception towards liking something.We know some dreams might never be fulfilled but still we dream or let's just say fantasize about it. I strongly believe that there is part in every human being which can think evil even for an instance or fraction of seconds or may be not 'evil' but can think negative towards something.


At the moment I am stuck with the situation. I am in love with 'Mr Who from future'. Being single is freedom, carefree, freedom of choice and freedom of almost everything. I am a free bird, who wants to fly and touch the sky but I never forget no matter how much I fly my destination would always be 'The Earth'. What I'm trying to say here is that, being single I wonder 'what does future holds for me?', 'How would my future life partner would be?', 'How will I meet him?', 'Will I ever have a life that I dreamt of?. Ahh too many questions and I know those questions are sometimes unanswerable. I know there any many men around me but I still leave this decision to my destiny and future to decide. May be I just don't bother to have commitments myself or may be deep down I'm hurt and I'm putting a shield of denial to protect myself. I am a tough cookie which looks hard outside but soft and sweet inside, I guess. *phiewww* But all I want is little act of faithfulness and simpleness from someone I care. Lavish things and luxurious talks don't convince me at all. Hahahah don't think of this post as an advertisement of me looking for a guy, you know those stupids reality shows like ,'..............ki swayamber', 'The bachelor' blah blah. 


Well, as being a normal human being I have many desires and dreams that are unsorted and I guess it might remain like that till I, Me, MYSELF go ahead and do something about it. Soon I will put an effort to do that but at this very moment I'm just ignoring my own heart. Sorry! You'll have to wait to be hurt by someone again cause love hurts, shit it really does hurt.


Please ignore the contents of this particular post thinking some insane girl has gone mad and just jot down random words here. Will you do that favour for me? hahhaha I'm a rude girl not being polite right but having said that I want you to know that I don't have any evil thoughts right now. hahhaha 


Have a good day all of you! Live life to fullest and laugh uncontrollably.

Selected videos from yotube. Don''t forget to check it out.

These are the videos in reference to the topic discussed in the home page. All videos are taken from youtube.


1. Musu musu haasi deu Nepali (ORIGINAL) - Himalayan Band

Copied : Musu musu haasi deu - 'Pyar mein kabhi kabhi'

 2. Demis Roussos - Say you love me (ORIGINAL)

Copied : Mehbooba oh mehbooba
You are my only fascination ORIGINAL

Copied : Tum se thoda saa mein door hun 'Pyar ka saaya'

Lovely Lady of Arcadia  ORIGINAL


Copied : Tumhe chede hawa chanchal 'Salami'

Copied : Yun hi kat jayega safar 'Hum hai rahi pyar ke'

3. Oh Carol Neil Sekada ORIGINAL 

Copied : Aye Dil - 'Kya Kehna'

Stereo Nation -Oh Carol

4. Wham - Last Christmas ORIGINAL

Copied : Dil Mera Churaya kyon 'Akele hum Akele tum'

5. The Beatles - And I love her ORIGINAL

Copied : Paagalpan cha gaya 'Jaanam'

Ob-La-Do, Ob-LA-Di

Copied : Meri Mehebooba - 'Pardes' Actually only the phrase OB-La-Do matches

6. Can't take my eyes off of you - Frank Sinatra ORIGINAL

Copied : Haan Haan Yeh Pyar Hai 'Dillagi'

7. Modern talking - Brother Louie ORIGINAL

Copied : Mera Dil Gayega Zubi Zubi 'Dance Dance'

8. Macarena - Los Del Rio ORIGINAL

Copied : Dil le le lena -Auzaar

9. 500 Miles away 

Copied : Jab koi baat 'Jurm '

10. ABBA - Mamma Mia ORIGINAL

Copied : Mil Gaya Humko saathi 'Hum kissi se kum nahin'

11. Karma Chameleon 'Culture Club' ORIGINAL

Copied : Coming Coming ayi hoon  mein 'RANG'

Late actress Divya Bharti

Sorry I can't find video.

12. One Way Ticket 

Copied : Hari Om Hari - 'Pyaara Dushman'

13. Turn me on 'Kevin Little'

Copied : Chakhle chakhle 'Awaara huwa paagal'

Hear the mix one as well , haha 

14. Stevie Won

der 'I just called to say I love you'

Copied : 'Maine pyar kiya' Mere rang mein 

15. In the summer time 'Mungo Jerry'

Copied : Hasina gori gori 'Tarazu'

16. oh baby don't break my heart 'Stereo Nation'

Copied : Mohabbat 'Oh baby dont break my heart'

16. Ole ole feeling hot hot -Dont know the singer

Copied : Bend it like Beckham

18. Elvis Presley - The King of Rock and Roll

'Let's rock'

Cpoied : 'We are Family' - Mujhe nahin pata

19.  Louis Armstrong's 1951 track 'A Kiss To Build A Dream On

Copied : Kaisi paheli hai yeh 'Pareenita'

20. Cliff Richard 'Theme for a dream'

Copied : pal pal har pal 'Lage raho munna bhai'

21. Kenny G - Joy of Life

copied - Meri jaane jaana 'Insaaf'

22. Pretty Woman 'Roy Orbison' original

Copied : Pretty Woman 'Kal ho naa ho'

23. Last but not the least, Deep within the Bamboo groove- Chinese song

Copied : Zara Zara kiss me 'Race'

Now mix them :P

This is one of my favourite-fouvourite-favourite!!!

Korean Drama 'Sassy Girl -Chung Hyan'

SARANGHEO

Copied : How I wished this song could be the original but its copied. :(

RACE movie- Pehli nazar mein

Here is Sarangheo v Pehli nazaer mein

Thanks for watching!!!!!!!!!!

:) :D & <3

"It's been 10 years"

It's been 10 years since I finished 10+2 (A Levels),

It's been 10 years since I left my best friend Cad (nickname),

It's been 10 years since I left my home to persue my career,

It's been 10 years since I left my country Nepal,

It's been 10 years since the Royal Massacre took place (in Nepal),

It's been 10 years since 9/11 Twin-Towers disaster,

It's been 10 years since I first took TOEFL test,

It's been 10 years since I knew how people can use and mislead you,

It's been 10 years since I first started earning for myself,

It's been 10 years since I realised that sometimes your priorities are only 'earning for living' (gaas, baas and kapaas),

It's been 10 years since I challenged life and it has challenged me all the time after that.

It's been 10 years !!!

Time really flies so quickly. Grab the opportunity, embrace the moments and store the best memories. Do what you like before it's too late. Learn to respect time cause it never goes back.

Thanks for reading! :)

Love > Heartbreak > Music

Yesterday I went to watch a Bollywood movie 'Rockstar' with my people. I only watch selected Bollywood movie. It was a nice movie. One point it was saying to the lead actor, 'you need to feel pain to create great music'. The lead actor does not feel anything till the girl leaves him. I'm not really trying to do publicity of the movie but just trying to write few points I liked most.

• How the girl is carefree when she meets him. They make a list of crazy things they want to do. And they dare to do it as well. Those crappy pubs and clubs where they dance.
• The scene of Kashmir. I just love that place and dream to go there if life and luck assist me.
• When the girl says she will meet him in Prague and the guy says ,'I haven't even been to Nepal'. Hahaha crazy lines.
• When he says to the bride (actress) "Every guy in the wedding secretly fantasies about the bride at night". Hahahhhahaha
• How he pauses for a minute when he hears the sound of 'Shehnai' played by an old man. This sound is normally played in weddings.
• How practical life is; she's got married life but he still seeks her presence. People who are in music; I have always found them living in different world of their own.
• How he rises to fame. You can learn music everywhere, in shrine, in roads, etc.
• The best and funniest part I ever liked is : when this Rockstar Jordan vomits in the red carpet event. (It's just a glimpse) He is very very carefree and does not give a damn to anybody.
• The back vocal was given by Mohit Chouhan and its just lovely. He also sang one of my other favourite song 'Naa hai yeh paana' from movie 'Jab We Met'.
• How the movie has still kept the reality fact alive and no commercial fonda, like the girl was about to get married and she does get married. How she was going to die and she does end up in coma. No here and there spiced up thing. The reality and curse of being famous. Even his friends love his fame and status rather than his loneliness and restlessness.
• When he tries to figure out why he couldn't be sad like when he says 'I was fed well in childhood, I wasn't adopted, my parents are still alive, I have a good family, blah blah'. There is nothing that could give him pain.

He, the rockstar, does create great music because of the real pain he feels deep within his heart. The pain of denial, the pain of love, the pain of seperation from family, the pain of separation from his love of life. Does it really happen? Does the pain inside your heart makes you create such great music? I also write poems, and I personally think that people write what they have gone through. Talking about that yep there are singer/ songwriter who has written about the state of their pain, happiness and so on.
Examples are like : (based on what I heard, no factfinding is carried out)

1. Eric Clapton wrote 'Tears in Heaven' when his son died.
2. Pink wrote many songs related to the phases of her life. 'So what', 'Please don't Leave', 'Like a Pill'.
3. Axl Rose wrote 'Sweet Child Oh Mine' for his sweetheart of that time.
4. Christina Aguilera sang 'You are Beautiful' which reflects her Life as well.
5. Mariah Carey wrote 'Hero'.
6. Gary Barlow wrote 'Patience', I guess he was being patient towards his comeback and drawback.
7. Jon Bon Jovi wrote 'Midnight In Chelsea' cause he loved the place.
8. Bruno Mars says 'Count on me' to his friends, 'Today I don't feel like doing anything' to his dad, 'The way you are' to his girl. I like his simple lyrics songs.
9. Talking about Nepali songs, 'Bides jaane mayalu' is one of the greatest song I heard. The singer/ songwriter wrote the song remembering his ex who married somebody else.
Chandani Shah is writer of most of the heart-touching song behind the greatest hits of SworSamrat Narayan Gopal 'Euta mancheko' also Singer Tara Devi 'Ukali orali haruma'. Tragically as her lyrics in the song which goes on like "jaha jaha janchau timi, chaya bani pachyayi rahanchu" (wherever you go I will follow you) she died with her husband together.
10. Puff daddy remixed the song 'I'll be missing you' to give tribute to his friend Notorious Big.
11. Eminem always dares to write and sing the songs which relates to some reality situation.
12. Amy Winehouse's 'Rehab' and many songs are superb.
13. The famous composer Mozzart. He created magical music following the different phases of his life as well. Finally it killed him.

Well if I go on like this it'll be a long long long long list. So, I'm going to STOP it here.

I believe music can also be created to show happiness as well and not only pain.

Well done actor, the whole movie crew and the newcomer girl. Music of this movie is encouraging and rocking. Rock is the form of music I like most anyways.

Thanks for bothering to read it till end. Keep visiting. :))

The day I was totally pissed off

The day I was totally pissed off.
( I thought I could sleep but not really)

There are many things happening in life and we kind of face them as we go along. I have been an avid twitter user recently and I'm loving it to bits. I met many nice people and have made friendship without seeing them in person. I never knew that social networking has progressed that much. (it's mentioned in my previous blog post : My Newfound Happiness)

As I was enjoying this new found happiness of mine, here you go : the moment of truth struck me. My name was misused and misleaded by somebody. All I wanted to do was to tweet and spend sometime being happy and seems like my happiness has been too much for somebody. Why can't people be just normal and simple? I wonder how celebrities can digest critics. It's just annoying sometimes. I feel for them. Now I have to put 'Lock' in my tweets, 'privatise my blog comments' and god knows what I have to do. I can't go on like this.  I think I should just hold my dignity and stand up for myself. My right eye has been twitching for quite a few days now (superstitious belief that something bad is going to happen), and here you go I see the disaster. I am reacting to it cause no one has done it before to me. I was always trying to be good to everyone and hope the same from people. So sad The result came out like this. My Sister always used to say what if people misuse your name and informations; she's right. Moment of truth is that she's always right in guessing bad things. I don't blame her for this. It's my fault I tweeted, I tried to be open and frank. Life is too cruel. Today was 'The day I was totally pissed off '. I heted being in public eye, being in Twitter,  Facebook, Blog and so on. Reality check here : I'm pissed off.

I do not want to close up all my accounts and be locked up just because of this. I have worked hard to get to this stage. Hope all my twitter followers and friends would support and help me. I'm in need of your help to survive in the open world of twitter. 

Once again thanks for reading my blog. With your support, I can go on posting things in my blog as long as possible. Much obliged !!!!! 

With Sincere regards,
Shaku Limbu

"ितमी नै" - Only you

 
 एउटा एकदमै पुरानो किवता प्रस्तुत गर्दैछु । आशा छ यहाँहरूलाई मन पर्छ होला । :)

"ितमी नै"
ह्रदयभरि ितमी नै
आँखाभरि ितमी नै
छोडी गयौ िकन खै
आिखर एक्लो भए मैं ।

हरेक शब्दमा ितमी नै
हरेक तालमा ितमी नै
िबर्सी गयौ िकन खै
आखिर घायल भए मैं ।

खोजे मैले ितमी नै
रोजे मैले ितमी नै
िनष्ठूरी बन्यौ िकन खै
आखिर दोधारमा मैं ।

िवशाल तृष्णा ितमी नै
अपार अाशा ितमी नै
बदिलयौ ितमी िकन खै
आिखर रोदनमा परे मैं ॥

Tried to translate it in English but not as good as it should be.

Only you

In my heart, there's only you,
In my eyes, it's only you,
You just left me, don't know why
In the end, I'm left with loneliness of mine.

In my every words, there's only you,
In my every rhymes, it's only you,
You just forgot me, don't know why
In the end, I'm left with hurtful scars of mine.

In my searches, there's only you,
In my choices, it's only you,
You just became selfish, don't know why
In the end, I'm left with undecisive life of mine.

In my  biggest thoughts, there's only you,
In my supreme hopes, it's only you,
You just changed, don't know why
In the end, I'm left with unstoppable tears of mine.




I wrote all of these Nepalese poems of my blog around same time i.e. may be a decade ago! Hope you enjoyed reading it.
Thank you all. :D

My Words, My Art, My Heart: The Darjeeling Tea

This poem has got that taste and aroma of Darjeeling Tea. He has beautifully written it. Though I have never been to Darjeeling I will go there one day and get on the Himalayan Train and also may be sing the following songs side by side hehe.

A famous song from Nepali movie - 'Chiya Barima O Chiya barima'

'Kasto majja yo ralaima, ramailo ukali orali' - a lines of one Bollywood movie


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